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it has been a long time since my last update.....maybe form 6 life is really too hectic...i've just finish my exam and having a short break now...i've make a promise to study hard during this holiday...but i still havent done anything yet....haiz....im so terrible...every promises that i've made cant seem to be fulfilled...

recently, i've met up with my best friends that had left ipoh...all of them had changed in some way...maybe more mature or prettier...but when i look at myself...i feel that i didnt change much...i feel that they are be coming better and better...and im still on the starting point...what should i do???im feeling so shameful to stand beside them :( ......

my friends keep asking what i wanna study when i finished my STPM...the problem is not choosing the right course...the problem for me is that...i scare that my result will not be good and no uni will accept me....

when im in my secondary years...i've never been so afraid of exam before (i mean not so much)....but this time i can really feel the fear inside my heart...i still remember the day before the exam...i've cried...is not that i wanted to cry...is the fear that made my tears fall down uncontrollable...i think the reason is i really havent prepared myself for the exam...everytime i also do last minute work...homework always not done...sometimes i really hate myself for being such a lazy bug...but i cant help it...can anyone help me???