it has been a long time since my last update.....maybe form 6 life is really too hectic...i've just finish my exam and having a short break now...i've make a promise to study hard during this holiday...but i still havent done anything yet....haiz....im so terrible...every promises that i've made cant seem to be fulfilled...

recently, i've met up with my best friends that had left ipoh...all of them had changed in some way...maybe more mature or prettier...but when i look at myself...i feel that i didnt change much...i feel that they are be coming better and better...and im still on the starting point...what should i do???im feeling so shameful to stand beside them :( ......

my friends keep asking what i wanna study when i finished my STPM...the problem is not choosing the right course...the problem for me is that...i scare that my result will not be good and no uni will accept me....

when im in my secondary years...i've never been so afraid of exam before (i mean not so much)....but this time i can really feel the fear inside my heart...i still remember the day before the exam...i've cried...is not that i wanted to cry...is the fear that made my tears fall down uncontrollable...i think the reason is i really havent prepared myself for the exam...everytime i also do last minute work...homework always not done...sometimes i really hate myself for being such a lazy bug...but i cant help it...can anyone help me???

Wow...so fast another year is gone...what's waiting in front leh???will 2010 be a better year???many unanswered question appearing...maybe these questions will never had an answer...year 2009 has make me change alot...1st time studying in a boy school...1st time same class with boys...1st time knowing that hw good is my former school, AMC....many 1st time had happened in this year...many memories that i'll never forget...

Next year will be a tough year for me....STPM will be coming soon....i have to work hard to achieve my aims...i dont wanna disappoint my parents...STPM results will definitely affects my future..either in a positive way or a negative way...haiz...

The path aheads me is quite blur...i don't know what my future will be but i'll work hard for it...if not im sure i'll regret someday...i believe soon my path will be clear...and the goals will be achieved...

i hope what i believe and what im doing nw is right...and i'll hold on till the end and never give up....gambateh...

life in sam tet is really busy and stress....homework everyday and study everyday....i've forgotten when is my last time sitting comfortably in front of the television to watch a movie or drama with my family....haiz...but i think i still enjoy it....i think my life in form 6 still considered quite interesting...everyday is full of challenges and surprises...hehehe..

if all my closest friends also stay in form 6 with me will be better....they will sure make my time in sam tet more colourful....miss them so much...how are you all??miss me???haha...sure got la...without me your life will be total silence right??haha...

recently, all lower sixth classes are preparing for their musical drama...our class is preparing for the sound of music.....i can say is a quite boring show not because we are boring is because the show don't have much climax...so i don't think our class can win a prize for it...haiz...n i think my class is not cooperative enough...what to do???all also very shy...haha....

but if this event happen in 5S8...i think it will be a different story....sure it will be more interesting...because our class got many talented people that will give us creative ideas....such as jo ann...huey meing.....ji ching....sook yan...and many more....it will be a great night...and a memorable one...

but L6B2 is not that bad also...our class is quite friendly ga....hehe...the guys are very funny sometimes...they make the teacher don't know wanna laugh or wanna mad at them...haha....being with them is quite happy tooo.....as for the girls...gossipping and blow water is what we do everyday...never feel bored about it...haha...everyday we will exchange news...this is one of the way to strenghten our bond.....so that we can achieve covalent bond...that is the strongest bond...haha....

so i think life in form 6 is not that bad also...exam is coming soon...so need to start studying liao....this time must get flying colours..haha....GAMBATEH!!!!!

this is a song i like to share with all of my friends...

i hope my new day will come soon....when all the darkness in my world will be shine by the new sun....and there will never be darkness in my life...is that possible???
or maybe im more suitable to live in the dark side of the world...where no one sees me or finds me...silence and sorrow fills the place...there is where i used to live...

A NEW DAY HAS COME

A new day has...come


I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear


Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you


Hush, love


I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come


Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy


Hush, love


I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come

5 pm sharp...

the president, hao phin ask us to come at 5pm sharp...then he sendiri come late....feel like whacking him liao...haha....when i reached there..i thought it will be a quite formal night...but the guys jus wear t-shirt and jeans...haiz...the girls wear so beautiful then the guys wear so "cincai"...haha...is like beauty and the beast....haha...

after that we start preparing for the farewell....the farewell will start about 6.30pm so we need to prepare all the thing before the seniors come..

6.00pm...

all still busy preparing and decorating the room.....and me as the receptionist is busy letting all the comers to sign the beautiful designed board made by joanne...and telling them not to sign so big coz the space are limited...but still got one pretty lady ( wan lim) go and sign so big...(want me to smack you is it???)haha...luckily still gt some space for the super seniors to sign it...haha...

6.30pm

ARRIVAL OF THE SENIORS....
all wear white colour except ke yin wear black....the whole thing looks like wedding party....so many leng lui(including me)..haha...then our ex president xin yee gives her speech....but she did not talk much coz she cried a lot..haha...then is our current president gives his speech....after that we start our dinner...


7.30pm

while we are having our dinner...we put up a slide show with all the sweet memories and funny photos....then is our perfomance....the singing perfomance by afternoon session and morning session...really interesting....then is our senior's performance....coincidently..their performance is same with ours...so we have to change it on the spot.....as result...our performance is veri cha.....feel so fish....

9.00pm

we start to play our games...is a killer game....and im the killer...hahaha *wicked smile*...i think im quite successful...coz i've killed quite a lot of people...haha...and the police cant catch me... i think the police is sleeping or dreaming...haha(jus joking)...is quite an interesting game we played...and the last show is we sang all the songs we learnt together...feel so touched that moment....feel like there is nothing else there...just all of us together...it is really a veri happy moment together...

10.00pm

our photo taking sessioon....all busy snapping photos...all wanna keep all these sweet memories forever....hehe.....then our teachers start chasing us go home....some of them went for the second round yum cha...but i didnt follow coz im so tired....so i went back home d....maybe next time we'll still have a chance to go yum cha together...and chit chatting till late at nite...haha....love you guys so much....start to like sam tet choir d...(don't let my amc choir junior saw it....if not sure they'll kill me..)haha....

the day before....

nervous, nervous and nervous.....so long did not drive already...scare i forget the steps...haiz...if i failed again, im sure my parents will kill me...because the fees is so damn expensive...and is very fish to fail twice...haha...

praying...praying....praying..... whole night keep thinking about the road...scare i forget when to turn and when to change lane...haha..


the test day...

wake up at 5.15..then sleep again...then wake up at 7.00...nervous..nervous and still nervous..haha..8 o'clock the instructor came and bring me to the driving centre..

when im doing the up hill thing...im so scare i will fall back like last time...luckily i've pass...then is the parking....i also passed....feel more relief....now left the driving....this time got give "black money" so i think is not a problem for me to pass gua...haha...

during the driving...

the tester chat with me a lot...so friendly...(i think is because of the "black money"...haha..)actually i done quite a lot of minor mistake...but because of "THAT", i've passed..haha(should i be happy??)during the test, accident happen again like last time...a motorbike suddenly came out from no where...it really give me a fright...so i immediately press the brek...luckily i did not crash into it...phew....the tester said is the motorbike's fault so that's means im safed..haha...

after that, everything goes quite smooth i would say...haha...then the tester say he'll let me pass...im so happy that time...so i finally passed my driving test..but i dont think i will dare to drive...i dont want to be on the newspaper....haha....



so now i can put this away and concentrate on my choir farewell....i and my friends are performing a dance...really cant imagine myself dancing on the stage...i think it will look like a wood dancing because im not flexible enough...haha.....i think singing suits me better...haha...but never mind everything also have it's first time...im sure it will be a valuable experience...haha...
wish me luck...

today is our lower six interclass competition...me take part in netball...haiz...apparently our team had lost terribly...haha...the result is 6-0...cham lo....luckily other categories we won...we only lost in badminton male single and netball...the results are quite satisfying..because i never thought that my class will won any of this categories...because our class look quite "nerd"...hahaha...

me really felt quite embarassed about the result we got in netball...because we are not aggresive enough...haha...nw my finger got swollen..it looks like a pig finger...ALL BECAUSE OF THE NETBALL...the stupid ball just hit my finger...ahhh!!!*in great pain*haiz...luckily is left hand not right hand...if not then cant do my homework liao...haha...

anyway....the final is on next thursday....i hope our class can emerged as champion for the overall..haha...then we can go celebrate using the class fund (bt unfortunately, class fund gt no money....haha..)